It just makes me feel ugly and fat and lazy and terrible about myself. And!! I just ate a bunch of sugar! And!! I still have to clean my kitchen. Sigh. Why why why do I have to have such low self-esteem?
I can’t help but wonder why Neng will smile so nicely and happily for group pictures with his buddies but whenever people want to try to take a picture of us to together, he does this weird, dazed half-ass smile. What the hell?! And then! In pictures with one of his exes, he was always smiling like he had the time of his fuckin life! And he told me they never had anything in common and eventually split! How is that even…?!? Neng and I have plenty in common, and it’s mostly our stupid humor! Humor makes you laugh! And smile and stuff! And that’s totally not apparent in our pictures! What the fuckin hell?! Is he really not that happy being with me or something?! Do I have a somewhat valid point or am I just over-analyzing?! Stupid feelings!!
I hate my PMS. It makes me so depressed about everything and makes me hate myself so much. And! It just fuckin feels like my insides are trying to eat itself out. Siiiiiigh. Once a month is far too much for me.